Vehicles for our Hearts

I can hear the murmurs of body hate
Sinking into my skin
Penetrating superficial boundaries of self-confidence
Peering at me through side glances
Everytime I take a bite
Scoffing at me
As I admire my full-body reflection
The way you would when someone laughs at a joke
That they couldn’t possibly understand
I smile indignantly as I try to figure out
If I feel indifference
Or envy
Towards hearts that travel in smaller vehicles
Hearts that though they may be equally susceptible to self-loathing
Haven’t had to constantly fight the world
For the right to self-love
Even harder than not knowing
Why society has determined that some hearts are not worthy of love
Be it because they’re either too big
Or too small
Or unknowingly in-between
Is not wanting to keep fighting
Every single day
And yet still knowing that I have to
Otherwise,
I’ll lose something far too great
A vehicle for my heart
Without which I can’t carry
My bartering tool for love
Neither can I love another without my heart
Nor can I love another without loving myself as a prerequisite
That is the way society has damned us
To live loveless lives
Or to not live at all
By teaching us to hate ourselves
Which then makes us hate each other
Because you see
I hear the murmurs of body hate
Sinking into my skin
Penetrating superficial boundaries of self-confidence
Because as often as I have been victimized by them
I have perpetrated them
Feeling that if I can’t have peace and be satisfied
No sooner should anyone else be satisfied
Self-loathing being an affliction that breeds
And multiplies
And takes root in our children
And will continue to destroy
Unless,
We accept that though our bodies are all very different
They are the great equalizers
Because in all their wonders they are still merely
Vehicles for our hearts

Please let it be known that “you look better without all that makeup on” is not a compliment. Why you may ask? Because I don’t wear makeup so I can look better in your eyes because Lord knows someone else will turn around and say that I look like a goat without makeup. So really, #idgaf, #IDoWhatIWant. I wear makeup because I love it, it’s my art, it’s how I express myself. If you want to tell me that you think I have a lot of natural beauty, say exactly that. But I don’t put this shit on for anybody and I sure as hell am not gonna take it off for anyone either.

Please let it be known that “you look better without all that makeup on” is not a compliment. Why you may ask? Because I don’t wear makeup so I can look better in your eyes because Lord knows someone else will turn around and say that I look like a goat without makeup. So really, #idgaf, #IDoWhatIWant. I wear makeup because I love it, it’s my art, it’s how I express myself. If you want to tell me that you think I have a lot of natural beauty, say exactly that. But I don’t put this shit on for anybody and I sure as hell am not gonna take it off for anyone either.

Where are the Disney Channel Original movies like this? It seems like Disney Channel is gong WAY backwards. The Cheetah girls, especially the first one, was all about girl power and making your dreams come true. It was about not depending on guys but on your sisters and not letting anyone equate female to inferiority. Songs like “Girl Power” and “Cinderella” with lyrics like “At times life may get you down but you better hold your frown, can’t nobody live your life but you. Stay true to who you are and always follow your heart.” And, “I can slay my own dragons, I can dream my own dreams, my night in shining armor is me, so I’m gonna set me free!” The song Cinderella is actually the very first thing that made me question the message of all the Disney Princess movies I loved (which is why I moved on to Mulan). Now Disney’s latest original movie was called “Zapped” and it was about an app that could control boys, not kidding. And Disney has one on the way called “How to Build a Better Boy”. Really? Not only are these movies teaching girls that their whole lives should revolve around boys, they’re also full of misandry. Usually in movies with female leads we don’t focus on the depiction of men (or boys as the case may be) but the idea of masculinity they had was rude, dirty, and stupid basically which isn’t fair to guys either, and I imagine that’s the reason why Disney wants to teach pre - adolescents how to build a “better” boy. It’s madness really. Girls need to have aspirations outside of a relationships and popularity and boys need to have depth to be given credit for being capable human beings. Bring back movies like the Cheetah Girls otherwise my kids will never watch Disney ever cause this shit is poison.

Where are the Disney Channel Original movies like this? It seems like Disney Channel is gong WAY backwards. The Cheetah girls, especially the first one, was all about girl power and making your dreams come true. It was about not depending on guys but on your sisters and not letting anyone equate female to inferiority. Songs like “Girl Power” and “Cinderella” with lyrics like “At times life may get you down but you better hold your frown, can’t nobody live your life but you. Stay true to who you are and always follow your heart.” And, “I can slay my own dragons, I can dream my own dreams, my night in shining armor is me, so I’m gonna set me free!” The song Cinderella is actually the very first thing that made me question the message of all the Disney Princess movies I loved (which is why I moved on to Mulan). Now Disney’s latest original movie was called “Zapped” and it was about an app that could control boys, not kidding. And Disney has one on the way called “How to Build a Better Boy”. Really? Not only are these movies teaching girls that their whole lives should revolve around boys, they’re also full of misandry. Usually in movies with female leads we don’t focus on the depiction of men (or boys as the case may be) but the idea of masculinity they had was rude, dirty, and stupid basically which isn’t fair to guys either, and I imagine that’s the reason why Disney wants to teach pre - adolescents how to build a “better” boy. It’s madness really. Girls need to have aspirations outside of a relationships and popularity and boys need to have depth to be given credit for being capable human beings. Bring back movies like the Cheetah Girls otherwise my kids will never watch Disney ever cause this shit is poison.